"Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you
You are my only, my only one."

 

but sadly there is not anyone......

 

but to a less depressing subject i havent updated in a while so i guess im going to. since last time hmmmm well at work they want to make me a checker so thats cool.

at home my dad lost his job and idk what we are doing about money. like at all. we seem to have alot cuz we keep buying stuff but idk where its coming from. he doesnt have a job.

at school....fuck no not yet still 3 weeks left

in me im having alot of problems with haveing nothing to do none of my "friends" talk to me not really anyone talks to me latley. so i sit at home and explore me and thats not really that fun cuz i begin to know too much about me and then i get lame and depressed and get even lower self esteam but hey ummm idk.

 

so yeah some new things oh and i got my senior pictures taken. they are awsome i did a bunch of them and i liked alot of them and thats saying something cuz i hate pictures of myself. so they were good and thats cool but they are expensive like $400 for all of them so yeah thats all. till next time

k so long story now im here. but back to the day today i worked. but in that 4 hour time period alot of shit happened. well not alot but whatever. first i took some things out to the car for this lady (40 lb bags of salt) and those were easy and so i did that and i was walking back in when the bakery dept manager said hey how would you like to try some 50 lb bags of flour? and well ive done em b4 so that was simple but bags got holes and i got flour all over my black pants. so that kinda sucked walking aro almost my entire shift in white covered black pants lol. but oyu also step on the flour which covers the bottom of your shoe which reduces the friction you have so i slid around alot witch was fun till i was bagging later and forgot i had less traction and ran to go get something and so i did a quick true which then i slipped and fell sideways wich kinda hurt but i was more concerened about everone looking at me. so that was embareassing. and later a buddie worker of mine came in we do the game ball gazing. which the people who watched love guru get but for everone else it is where you try to get your friend to look at the circle you made with your finger that you place on your crotch and they look you hit them. well he asked how much time you got left i said a short time,not long. and he tryed to ball gaze me but what he said was "as short as this?" i didnt look so no points for him but then i said dude, you just called your dick short. he immediatly replied with "NNNNNNNNOOOOOOOO!!!!!" so that was funny. and last thing was a bitch from my music class came in and she was like i know you you were in my class. to which i wanted to respond oh right you were that bitch that made fun of me my girlfriend a kinda friend a autestic kid and disrespected the teacher. but i couldent cuz i was at work but i was i could have. so that was my day work work at least. but as for the rest of the day it kinda sucked well cept i saw a gif of a chick getting rammed in the ass and she kinda looked like me 0_0 so that was weird. but other then that im just sitting here hopeing someone will talk to me. well thats me signing off. c ya whoever reads this